Cross my heart and hope to die xoxo

forrget_my_name @ 2005-12-09T13:11:00

2005-12-09T18:12:12Z

DDR TOURNAMENT

DEC 17 LYNCHBURG PUTTPUTT 8 PM

forrget_my_name @ 2005-11-27T15:41:00

2005-11-27T20:39:38Z

decemeber 6th

I get my braces off
i get paid
singing at timbrook
yay.

i love you

forrget_my_name @ 2005-11-16T15:48:00

2005-11-16T20:52:21Z

November sixteenth two thousand five

Today freakin sucked!!

I woke up late... forgot my project on the counter ..bombed a math test....left my book for independant reading at home so i couldnt do the worksheet.. then some idiot kicked my locker shut and it got jammed .... i didnt get home from school til 3:30 .. my diabeties is going freakin insane .. im not feeling so hot.. so then my dad washed my work clothes because he didnt know i had to work .. so now im going to be late for work . .and im never late for work ..ugh and and and i have a intense amount of homework .. ughughugh

its raining thats a plus!

hehe

love you

forrget_my_name @ 2005-11-15T07:23:00

2005-11-15T12:26:18Z

So it's been like 8 weeks + since i have updating my livejournal .. guess i should keep this thing active huh. Not much has change ... I no longer have my septum ring .. i was going to try to put it back in but i decided not to .. whats the point when everyone and their mother have their septums pierced .. i havent decided yet but i'm pretty sure im taking out my lip ring as well .. now for the big news

I GET MY BRACES OFF DECEMBER 6TH!

exciting I know... hmm what else .. oh yeah i work at the summit now been workin there a couple months it's an okay job i guess.School is pretty much sucking ass about now I missed a week of school and spent the next 3 trying to make up everything and got behind and my grades arent lookin tooo good [yuck] .....I miss Natasha/Becki/Kaitlin/ and Chrissy i don't ever see you guys anymore lame .. well i think thats all for right now

<3

forrget_my_name @ 2005-09-21T22:58:00

2005-09-22T03:06:31Z

Hey guys

man i need to update this thing more often haha.

Life is so amazing right now , busy but amazing
See you at the pole was this morning, it was so awesome i didn't expect to see that much of a turnout! We basically talked about life sang a little bit a prayed before the bell rang and i must say it was the greatest way to start my day off .... oh my goodness i have a crush hahah but whats new .. i'm still music deprived i know that i miss my cds

love you

..

2005-08-30T02:25:59Z

Well life outside of home is good. My brother finally left for college and i'm stuck with the parents .. i hate it .. i can't do anything wihtout getting yelled at .. it's driving me insane .. they expect so much out of me and i'm not willing to put that much effort out .. My parents have had me crying the last 2 nights .. my mom keeps taking my cellphone .. i didn't even do anything . .. I hate school , I hate my classes , and i'm sick of lynchburg drama . What's wrong with people .. or is it me? As i said life outside of the house is good .. i have met some wonderful people that are pure blessing , i might be getting my braces off sooner then i thought .. on the other hand i need a friend thats a good spiritual leader to remind me of the things i kno i shouldnt be saying or thinking about or doing .

im going now..

forrget_my_name @ 2005-08-03T02:07:00

2005-08-02T06:21:42Z

I'm not sure really whats going on anymore .. I'm not sure who i can trust .. defiantly not many kids my age thats for sure. I'm really sick of being alone but scared to get into another relationship. i'm really frustrated with the way i look i can't wait til my hair grows out .. and maybe goes back to original color and ill take out all my peircings maybe ill actually feel like im pretty .. I don't know .. I'm just really not satisfied with life . I'm dreading the upcomming school year .. school drama makes me hate my life even more and i know i'm not the only one. The few friends that i thought were loyal that i talked to at school have turned out to be just as two faced as the rest. right now as sad as it seems .... Shows/Music .. and God are the only 2 things that are keeping me sane and giving me somehting better to look forward to . I dont know and about the boy situation .. everytime i think i have found a nice boy to start talking to .. they say something like " hey can you send me nude pictures " or try to get into my pants .. and that really makes me angry .. i dont know this entry is so random but its everything thats just on my mind

and im sorry to the ones that i have been real mean to lately.

i love you guys.

forrget_my_name @ 2005-07-10T01:29:00

2005-07-09T17:29:14Z

forrget_my_name @ 2005-07-07T10:23:00

2005-07-07T02:24:50Z

But thoughts may change
And times they rearange
I don't know who you are anymore
But thoughts come and go
And this I know
I'm not who you recall anymore
But I must confess
You're so much more than I remember
Can't help but entertain this thought
Thoughts of us together.................

Anberlin

forrget_my_name @ 2005-07-01T01:34:00

2005-07-01T05:59:11Z

I haven't updated in a while and i realize this, as of right now i'm seeing things in black and white terms. In other words, something good things happen and sometimes they dont there is no gray area inbetween. I feel like all the " good" friends i have don't really care about me anymore. I know i have been alternating between feelings of high self-worth and self-disappointment but i don't feel that this reason should exclude me from hanging out with my friends. I guess in a sense it could be a matter of me being paranoid, but i find it so strange that some of these kids that were enemies are now the best of friends and hanging out. Seems somewhat hypocritical right? It has even gotten to the point that when i'm in a " social group", I don't talk nearly as much as i ususally would in fear of saying something stupid ( and knowing me i would). ok now on to the next topic

I have met some really incrediable people lately and i'm fortunate for that, but is new friends, new faces really what i wanted? I do understand most of the people i hang out with range anywhere from 16-22 but it's so hard for me to comprehend why these hardcore christians that were just months ago on fire for God are now, what's the words for it ? I guess it's safe to say " throwing their life away". I watched my best friend go from a good kid that hated drugs, was such a loving and caring guy loved music and hanging out to a kid that trips on acid pills and smokes pot everyday. Maybe i'm just pickin up the tiny details and not seeing the whole picture. who knows. Next.

In about a half a month my brother, David is leaving to attend Radford university and I'm scared! Why? Two reasons. One David has always been that wall to keep things calm between my parents and I, he knew just when to get my out the house or what to say to end the arguement. When he's gone who's going to be that barrier? Second reason I love My brothers ex girlfriend amanda to death but she's going to be going to radford too and i know they have been talking again that once they both start college that they might date again i guess it's really not my place to worry about but i saw what she did to him and it tore me up just as much as it tore him apart.. should i sit back and watch and let it happen .. or should i speak up ?

I don't know i know this is a bunch of rambling but yeah .. i'm going to go now .. xoxox ♥

come or ill shoot you in the face :)

2005-06-20T19:36:26Z

weds june 22

Terminally, Your Aborted Ghost (Brutal Massachusetts death/grind. Macabre Mementos Records/The Spew Records)

False Hope (Blacksburg, VA extreme death metal)

Methadone Abortion Clinic (Roanoke, VA gore-grind. Vomit Noise Productions)

PETA is at the Door and I'm Holding a Gun to the Cat's Head (Lynchburg, VA drum machine weirdness)

A Portrait in Ashes (VA metalcore)

110 Braddock Drive
Forest, VA 24551

Only 5 bones!SIX O'CLOCK PM

PLEASE COME OUT AND SUPPORT LOCAL/REGIONAL MUSIC AND TOURING BANDS!

It'll be a blast!

Thanks

Directions
Take Graves Mill Rd. to 221. Take a left onto Bateman Bridge Rd.. Then take take a left onto Braddock Dr.

july 10th
worthless fest 2005
-REFLUX (prothetic recs from DC)
-ION DISSONANCE (abacus recs from canada)
-THROUGH THE EYES OF THE DEAD (prosthetic recs from SC)
-BLOODJINN (goodfellow recs from NC)
-CLASSIC STRUGGLE (ironclad recs from SC)
-LEX VEGAS (lexington, va)
-LOVE IN THE TIME OF CHOLERA (northern va)
-PETA IS AT THE DOOR... (lynchburg, va)
-CONDEMNED BY SILENCE (madison heights, va)

4pm
$10
at the elron ruitian club
madison heights,va

forrget_my_name @ 2005-06-18T21:41:00

2005-06-19T01:45:19Z

wed june 22nd

terminally your aborted ghost (sick ass grind)

false hope ( metal gods)

methadone abortion clinic (drum machine gore)

PETA....(brittney spears gore grind)

a portrait in ashes (sex metal)

6 pm
5 bucks
at
110 braddock drive
forest,va 24551

forrget_my_name @ 2005-06-14T15:00:00

2005-06-14T19:05:05Z

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forrget_my_name @ 2005-06-07T19:41:00

2005-06-08T00:09:18Z

I have been really busy with exams/SOLS/PSATs and ETC i's takin up most of my time . Chelsi , blake , ruthy , stuart , merf ..get ahold of me i have the picture from the baptism that we had with nsite it's amazing . .those were good times i miss them . . some i've become vegetarian , it's harder then i thought but the other day i was going to to kroger to get some vegan food ( it's expensive) and there was this guy comming out the dollar tree place thing and he walks out and pulls out like 50 things from underneath his shirt .. there was his pit bull we'll he saw me and my mom and he took off running to his car well his pit bull followed him and i guess thought he was he was playing and the pitbull latched on to his leg .. i laughed . thats Karma in action right there .. but the vegie burger was good. I miss you guys .. summers almost here start calling me so we can hang out and such ..

|Brandi|♥

forrget_my_name @ 2005-05-19T19:19:00

2005-05-19T23:18:54Z

sat may 21st: analog (metalcore on imagine it records, memebers of paria),fleshandbloodrobot (MA grind mosh madness), everything falls together (boar sticking music), peta...(drum machine gore), the queen malice (noke death grind metal), one more tba at "The Loft" 2nd floor at the Spectrum (old spankys
908 Main St
lynchburg, VA 24504
US

7pm 7 bucks

Oh yeah .. Screw the kids that start rumors .

forrget_my_name @ 2005-05-17T21:32:00

2005-05-18T01:41:18Z

So i was sitting at lunch today and the subject of how screwed up the world has gotten was brought up . I didn't say much on it just thought about it and i have been thinking about it all day . What has this world come to ? People beating and raping other people , young teens comminting suicide , people defying the world of God , Aren't we suppose to love everyone ? I know this is comming from the Eyes of a christian but we weren't put on this earth to kill one another . I'm so tired of hearing about all this negative stuff going on in the world I'm probably one of the furtherest people from perfect and i don't want anyone to go on the assumption that i'm saying i am .. I just wished we could have a civilized life at one point .. i will . .i know .. but until this day comes i guess ill just have to deal and prayer about the fact that this world has become and even more screwed up place .

i'm glad my friends keep me sane .. you guys rule ♥

Everyone go to the show at the old spanky building on saturday and the show at cvcc on sunday .

forrget_my_name @ 2005-05-16T22:59:00

2005-05-17T02:59:27Z

Dusty is freakin' amazing .

The End.♥

forrget_my_name @ 2005-05-16T21:26:00

2005-05-17T01:25:40Z

xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxooxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo

Behind every great love comes a tragety

2005-05-09T02:38:43Z

Everything has been going rather decent other then the fact that this CUNT face started saying shit and sending shit to people that i had nothing to do with .. but that was taken care of ...

I don't know what's been wrong with me lately i have been rather grumpy i guess lack of sleep but in the " boy" department i'm confused i wan't a guy that WANTS to be with me .. i'm far from the prettiest thing and the real sweet guys that i find myself taking a liking to are far away and it really sucks either that or they turn out to be complete jerkoffs .. it happens .. it's been a while since i have had a decent relationship i guess i'll just sit back and wait for it to happen ..

i got exams and shit comming up not this week but the week after i have alot of studying to do .. please pray for that .

Everyone go to the show on sat. and I have new pics up on myspace for those of you who are like brandi you need new pictures , ahem judia...

I love you and for the people i havent talked to recently IM me or email me drop me something .. i MIss talking to the people i use to ..

forrget_my_name @ 2005-05-01T02:18:00

2005-05-01T06:25:33Z

wow its been a while since i last updated .. alots gone on since .. it seems like everything around me is changing either that or im just now opening my eyes and realizing whats going up .. ive got "friends" makin out with people they shouldnt, boyfriends and girlfriends cheating on each other , people arguing , people getitng mad at me for all the wrong reasons , severe misunderstandings and what not .. i love my friends to death there is not one thing i wouldnt do for them .. i just hope everything will work its way out ... i feel like im responsible for everything that has gone down in the last week or so even when i wasnt even there to see the situations and it sucks .. but for real i love you and i hope the ones that are mad at me can forgive me ♥

bleeed for me

2005-04-22T02:38:17Z

so whos going to marry me and claim me forever?

forrget_my_name @ 2005-04-17T16:09:00

2005-04-17T20:11:46Z

I have had the BEST day ever today .. why? .. not sure nothing really great happened .. i got some sleep , it was sunny outside , i did my hair today (didn't turn out excactly how i wanted to but still looks good ) , I got a call from an old friend , and im singing tonight, and God is amazing .. i wish everyday could be like this =)

yes he's a human whoopie cushion and its possiably the most amazing thing ever . ha love that kid

forrget_my_name @ 2005-04-07T15:20:00

2005-04-07T19:22:48Z

macrock was amazing .. i love jessica i love cyrus more.. missing school is awesome , sleep is amazing ... headaches suck .. tightend braces and more metal in my mouth is uncool .. cyrus is cool and well your not . hahah a.. i have the hiccups someone scare me ! ahh nooo .. and in other words .. this picture below .. is PRICELESS

forrget_my_name @ 2005-04-04T18:40:00

2005-04-04T22:45:34Z

Wensday night EFT house starts at 6pm $6 : Escape Grace, The Classic Struggle, Summer's End, EFT, Cassius, and Revnant

Saturday Night EFT house 6pm $5 - PsyOpus , EFT and one other

GO OR DIE! Especially on wensday and tell all your friends!

forrget_my_name @ 2005-03-31T22:58:00

2005-04-01T03:58:53Z

April, 1 2005 at Four Square Evangel Church
612 Bullitt Ave Se, Roanoke, VA 24013, Roanoke, VA 24013, Roanoke, VA 24013
Cost: 5

Aldora, Called To Arms, Through the Harlots Eyes, 1 more tba probably around 5 bucks